by Riley Bartlett (they/them), Reiki Practitioner at Prideful Wellness
The question I always hate getting in a therapy office is, “do you see things other people don’t see or hear things that others don’t hear?” For me, the answer is always yes. I can see orbs floating in space and shadows that create images. I can see auras splaying out like a web and textures of energy radiating off a person’s body. I’ve had friends turn off the lights and suddenly there are figures standing in the room that only I can see. I also hear words and phrases and warnings that end up coming true. Some of this I keep to myself. People are generally more or less open to hearing about auras and orbs of light, but hearing about shadowy figures standing over them as they sleep, not so much.
When I told my therapist about this, she just assumed I was on drugs. Mind you, she wasn’t a very good therapist and I only saw her a couple of times when I was in high school, but the experience made me wary to share what I saw and heard with others.
The reasons I decided to get trained in Reiki was because I’m so sensitive to energy and I found things out that I had no business knowing. In high school, I knew one of my teachers was going to go out on bedrest before it happened. I predicted the gender of my friend’s baby. I gave a friend a warning about something that was going to affect him on the left and, a week later, a medical procedure punctured his left lung. Getting Reiki trained helped me make sense of what I was seeing, hearing and feeling.
“clairvoyance” and “clairaudience” are two ways that I gather information about clients in my Reiki sessions. The word “clair” is French for “clear.” The word “voyance” means “sight” and the word “audience” means “sound.”
Being clairvoyant and clairaudient does not mean I see things like I would in a movie or hear something that sounds like it’s coming from another room. It can be that way, but 90% of the time, I see images in my mind’s eye or I get a sense of the words being communicated. I use these senses in my sessions to give people messages about things going on in their lives or communications from loved ones who have passed on.
When I was younger, I felt crazy because of how people reacted to the things I saw and heard, but now surround I myself with people who believe me and who see these skills as valuable to my energy healing practice.
Photo credit to Heather (she/her) Hanson @msheathernoel.
My name is Halli and let me start with how paranormal runs in my family an example of such is my older sister could see spirits when she was younger and one of the spirits she saw often was a little girl in a red dress and as years passed and she stopped seeing sprits we happened to be on a road trip to Seattle Washington when we stopped at a store that did psychic readings and one of the clerks pulled my sister to the side and explained what the little girl looked like that my sister used to see and said she was following my sister because she liked her and that my sister had a gift to see spirits but closed it off and offered my sister help in being able to see them again in which my sister immediately refused. I also learned from a relative on my dads side of the family that the woman on that side of the family tend to have spiritual gifts. Now I’m going to explain the things I’ve experienced in my life and the struggle I’m having currently. Ever since I was a toddler I would have vivid dreams, dreams as if I were living a whole other persons life and a lot of them were pretty gruesome the dreams got so bad that the only way I could get any good sleep without having such dreams would be by taking sleeping pills. I was taking sleeping pills at a young age to stop the dreams. But I also experienced seeing shadow figures at a young age I called them shadow blobs at first they use to scare me but when I was in early high school I had a dream where I was seeing from the shadow blobs perspective and I could see that the shadow blob was standing behind the head of my bed and was staring down at my sleeping body I could see my own sleeping face and it felt like I was feeling what the shadow blob was feeling it felt very fuzzy and lost and like it was just roaming around like it had no purpose it was just aimlessly wandering around and something about me caught it’s attention I didn’t feel any malice or I’ll intention it was just simply curious. Ever since that dream any time I saw the shadow blobs, which most of the time I would see peeking around corners of rooms I would usually politely ask them to leave and they usually would. But after I graduated from high school things started to escalate I began hearing voices and please bear with me trust me it took me a long time of being told and also believing that I was having auditory hallucinations or had psychosis until I couldn’t deny what was happening anymore I’ve been experiencing hearing voices I’ve had two incidents where I was driving home from work at night and I would hear the voices tell me to slow down and to turn my brights on because there were deer up ahead and sure enough as soon as I did what the voices said sure enough there were deer just ahead and I had just enough time to stop and avoid hitting the deer. Lately the voices I’ve been hearing have made it somewhat difficult to function normally for some reason my focus feels like has been slipping away and I can barely keep up with my day to day life I’ve also been experiencing an unusual amount of deja vu and have been seeing an unusual amount of black orbs as well as shadow figures I’ve also recently noticed seeing round filmy vortex’s so often. And I also had this one time where I was alone in my apartment in the middle of the night and I felt myself stop breathing like I felt no movement in my chest like what a normal person would feel it felt like everything just stoped like time itself stopped but yet I was still moving and able to walk even when it felt like I wasn’t breathing and for some reason everything had a green like film to it, it basically felt like I was in another realm where everything just stoped side note my apartment complex is outside of town and is surrounded by nature so the normal things I usually hear such as crickets chirping or other wildlife making noises just abruptly stopped it was utter silence and then I saw a big filmy vortex in the middle of my kitchen and so many black orbs coming out of it I then saw a tall shadow figure that had what looked to be a cowboy hat on I was scared and I wanted to leave but as soon as I opened my front door I started to see so many different faces pressed against my outer glass door and I could just barley make out figures that looked inhuman and more animal like and I had the strong urge or gut instinct not to take one step outside like I said it felt like I was in a whole different realm and if I would have stepped out of my apartment I would be stuck there so I rushed back to my room and prayed for help from the angels (I’m not particularly religious but I was desperate) and after a while the orbs disappeared along with the vortex and the green film lifted and I started to feel my chest rising I was breathing again I felt winded and it almost felt what I believe to be an out of body experience. I’m at a point where I feel like I need help and I don’t mean psychiatric but help to understand what I’m experiencing and how to get a better control on it. Reading this article helped me understand that I’m not alone I’m not the only one experiencing things such as I described by myself so I thank you for posting this article, and I wish you nothing but the best, thanks Halli
Thank you so much Halli for sharing your experiences, love from Pakistan